This post is about to be all over the place!
Today was interesting to say the least. It was a hard day for me for many reasons, but I'm in bed now so it's all good. I went to my internship and I remember feeling like Amanada Seyfried in "Letters to Juliet." I just wanted to write a real story already! I kept doing run down's of stories that aren't mine, but I write a small paragraph and tell the reader to view the full story by clicking on the link -__-. I wasn't that frustrated, but I was mostly wondering why I kept doing that, I felt like a blogger.
Then some caucasian woman working on the other side of my internship thought it was cute to tell her co-worker (after viewing a picture he showed her), "Oh you were wearing a hoodie! You look like a hoodlum." Even after the whole Trayvon Martin incident, I never took hoodies to have a negative image, but when she said that, something just didn't feel right.
I was over it. But today was hard for me for many other reasons. In coming to a different city like New York, I realize that you can't escape your problems. They will follow you everywhere and it's funny because I've been telling people that I've been seeing my growth since I've been here. I feel like I've been challenging myself and have been growing as a result, it's crazy.
At the same time, I just come from a background that none of these girls understand and after a loooong talk with my mom tonight, I realized that that's ok. I don't have to continuously get upset when people don't understand my plight because honestly, I'm tired of explaining myself. But one thing I do need to do is make better decisions. In order to have something better, you gotta do something different. That's a journey I've been on for some time now and it won't be long until I reach some good results.
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